saddened..

Not so cheereful tonight. I feel betrayed. I feel abandoned. I feel lonely. The person I loved the most left me today. Well, technically I broke up with him. I just had the feeling I wasn't welcome anymore. I'm not needed. I just knew that when he decided to stay out all night last night and to hang up and say "i just don't want to stay on line!" There are so may reasons for my decision today. It wasn't just a one day thing. I'll miss him. But i think its for the best. We've broken up a lot of times before. But this time I think its for real. He hasn't called or texted. I'm not gonna keep my hopes up that he will. I just don't want to be disappointed again. Im really sad and heartbroken. But its all part of life, of love. Long distance relationship is hard. Its been really stressful. But I loved him and enjoyed all the times we've spent together. No matter how limited they were. We had a good run. 1 year and 4 month filled with good memories.

Sorry for the very sad post. I just wanted to let it all out.

<3 BIANCA